Gay and bi guys in closet? does make you feel anxious or nervous to speak about your uality or to listen?

e.g in my case I am gay but nobody knows except my mom but after months when she was denying and insulting me and now she doesn't speak about the topic and my aunt was supposed to know that I am gay and she says I could find a gf yet and to speak with other people specially from my city and from gay chats make me feel nervous and stuff like that.. btw I am suffering anxiety but I am afraid of gays who are effeminate because it's the more common kind of guys you can find here in my small city in mexico.. I don't know if you are suffering anxiety for telling your parents or friends.. even makes me feel bad when I hear look that fg, because my friends or clmates think a gay man is an effeminate guy.. I am not so effeminate but people ask me and makes me feel nervous but they think gays speak like gays and use the way of walking etc.. I don't do that but I don't know my first contact with gay world were gays who were effeminate but I didn't like but all my life I always thought in men very masculine and stuff like that not effeminate and soft men.. I feel horrible yet.. and angry I think I have depression., I don't know if other gays or bi have the same problems about coming out or looking for friends who are gays or bis?